it just is what it is

january went fast. sheesh. at least my posture is much better. all that exercise and stuff really
does help. and the signs posted all over to 'sit up straight' and 'no slouching.'
i'm in the process of trying to get the place i get my hair done to have yoga classes. ha.
good one, i know.

being a very good girl lately, eating so darn healthy it's scary. really trying to avoid that
stomach bug that everyone around school has.

boring blog, i know.

my resume has gone to www.emersonwaldorf.org and i'm waiting to hear from admin there.
business is boomin here, getting lots of new referrals and having to turn them down. i just can't do any more than what i am doing and expect to smile or breathe. one kid twice a week is all i can handle. i am so torn about what to do next year. i am getting a little too involved with school and the 'innards' of it. but it does help with things. getting to know people and having a little fun as well. i want to leave it, but at the same time, it's nice to watch the seeds of one's labor grow and blossom. that's the payoff that does not really occur when moving around a lot. and moving around a lot is something i really like to do. i'm trying to see the other side of that. it's not so bad, but the fire is burning and i want to get out.

it's pretty intense, this drive i seem to have. if i manage to keep myself around artists and stuff, i'll be much better off. i am in desparate need of some creative people to just be with. i need some serious intensity that does not come from myself. the good kind, of course.....

2006

Gosh, there are so many things i've been wanting to write about, and so many things I don't want to write about.

I've been thinking of my intentions for the new year. I've had to let go of just about everything. Thoughts, wants, perceived needs, expectations, hopes, dreams, and the like. I let go of who i was, to allow myself to become who i should be. I wonder how long that will take! Hee hee. Besides play with my son at all possible moments, I intend to ride my bike more, eat less, meditate more, absorb less of the stuff i really don't need, and smile a hell of a lot more than i have this past year.

I finally made a new friend. She has a little boy in kindergarten, and we work together. She and I have had a scrapbooking play date while our boys had a play date. They also have a trampoline. It's tough getting me off of one of those. I was laughing so hard. I tell ya, jumping on a trampoline really challenges the bladder control of a woman who has had a kid, specially when ya gotta go really bad. Then the laughing doesn't help....that was so fun.
Then we took the kids to fun gym last friday and my babe gave rock climbing another shot. He got much higher this time. The thing is, when he lets go, he swings, and that is as fun as if not more fun than climbing the rock!

Namaste.